I really, really tried today. After work, when I read her latest blog posts, I did my best not to fall over on the Yamanote line, to not collapse and blow away.
All the cuteness in the world can’t make me feel better now. My heart is in pieces, and I have no one to blame but myself.
I helped them get together. I did it. Now the timetable is fucked and Ai’s going to kill me, and…. I can’t even think about her anymore without crying. I can’t comprehend what’s happening.